I have learned from the past.
So, dearly beloved, this is how I will love you in the future...
I will be a self-generating woman able to love you as you deserve to be loved.
I will be totally honest with you, even if I am scared of how you will react or if it may hurt you.
I will be 100% authentically ME instead of what I think you want me to be or what I think I should be.
I will not assume. Instead I will directly communicate my thoughts, feelings and concerns to you so you never have to guess what I am thinking or feeling.
I will not make you responsible for my happiness. At the same time, I will fully cherish and be aware of the happiness you bring into my life.
I will always tell you when I need space and time. I will let you know when I am ready to re-connect.
I won’t starve myself or run for miles in hopes you’ll like my legs and want to keep me around.
Instead, I will take care of my temple so as to never disconnect from you, the Universe, my purpose and myself.
I will listen to you. I will trust your advice, body, heart and mind to guide me, support me, lead me and love me.
I will appreciate all the ways you love me that may otherwise go unnoticed.
I will trust your love for me and not worry about losing you to another woman.
I will believe in you and do everything I can to make you always believe in yourself.
I will remind you of your strength.
I will guide you back to peace.
I will not criticize or judge you with my words and thoughts. If I do I will turn it around and see what is going on in me.
I will live with an open heart every day fully receiving the love you give me.
When you look in my eyes, you'll be seeing straight into my soul.
When you touch my skin, I will not tense up.
When you rest in my arms, you will feel like you are home.
When we make love, I'll be totally present to receive you fully.
I have chosen to be single all these years.
I wanted to learn what LOVE REALLY is.
I told God I was OK with how long it would take.
I did not know it would take this long.
It has been really really hard, I won't lie.
But I wouldn’t trade a day of it if it means I will get to LOVE you the way LOVE was intended.
First, though, I had to learn how to love myself.
That took ten years.
Then I had to learn how to GIVE without DEPLETING myself.
That took a few more.
Oh, I have learned so much.
I have met people but they just didn't fit.
I thought nobody wanted me.
I even broke someone's heart.
I didn't mean to.
I got my heart broken too. Really bad.
So, I healed some more.
I learned how strong I am.
I learned how to stand on my own and be truly happy and content there.
But I don’t want to be alone anymore.
I want to be with YOU.
I have so much love to give now and I want us to be together for as long as we get to be together.
I believe it will all have a purpose.
I believe it will ALL be redeemed.
Everything we have been through will be used for good - for us and for the world.
From now I am ONLY moving forward - open-hearted, open-handed and ready, from this place of strength, to GIVE the WORLD my love.
And to you dearly beloved.
You get me.
Not an illusion of ME.
Not a shadow of ME.
The real ME.
ALL OF ME.
I have fought my way here for you, for me and for the WHOLE world.
So, gosh darn it, come home.
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After some major crickets, things are about to get really juicy and delicious around here...because I JUST CAN'T HOLD IT ALL IN ANYMORE.